Friday, 30 September 2011

Bliss

It's rather unusual to be this comfy. What with school and homework and revision and other things, sometimes it's just too hard to relax, but right now, my load is light, so I'm relatively stress free.
The past two days have been brilliant. The lessons have been unexpectedly enjoyable, I spent time with my littlest cousin, and the fact that I'm funded just adds to my pre-existant happiness. I don't quite understand it, but I'm not complaining. I think at the minute it might have something to do with my currents state. I had a shower a few hours ago, so I know I don't have to be up too early tomorrow and my hair is soft. I'm comfortably stretched out on my bed, headphones in, playing a playlist that I haven't had to switch songs on at all, and I've just spent the last half an hour trying to read a French comic book. It's ridiculously comfortable. The only things which are making me feel ever so slightly awkward is knowing that I have to get up to get changed at some point, I shouldn't have had my glasses on for that long, and mum's watching Russell Howard's Good News and I'm enjoying my music too much to turn the tv on.
Ah well. Rock on.

Thursday, 29 September 2011

Funding and Contact Lenses

About a month ago I went to the doctors, because of a problem I was having with my ear. The problem was that  one of them, my left one, stuck out more than my right one. It's always bothered me, its becoming a problem and I just want to get rid of it (the problem, not the ear), so that's what I'm doing. The doctor said he'd make a request for funding, since I can't get it done on the NHS. He said that it wasn't sticking out severely but it is noticeable, and since it's just the one ear, I'm asymmetrical, so I'm more likely to get it than someone else whose ears both stuck out a little. The wait seemed so long, and I was beginning to lose hope, but then mum opened a letter of mine, and hey-presto, I've got funding! There hasn't been a date set yet, but hopefully it''l be before the end of this school year, so I won't have an ear sticking out on my prom photos, but long enough beforehand that I won't have a bandage around my head, either. I can't have it done in school time because school will only allow me three days off, and to be honest, I don't really want to take that long off because it's just too hard to catch up with some lessons. I won't really have any control over when the appointment is, but I really hope it isn't this half term: I really want to be in Psmith, and I have to have bandages on for at least a week after the operation, and dressings for a week after that, so I'm not even going to be happy if I have to go to school like that. Really, the optimum time is going to be the Christmas holidays, so that's what it's going to have to be.

I'm also considering getting contact lenses. Just FYI.

Shooting Baby Hitler?

In an early Vlogbrothers video, it was suggested that a time machine should be created to go back in time, find Hitler as a baby, and shoot him. No Hitler, no World War Two, many many many people not dead. Then people started saying that it would be wrong to shoot a baby because it's not the baby who was evil, it was how he grew up, and the argument went on for quite a while until somebody suggested the Evil Baby Orphanage.
The Evil Baby Orphanage is a concept where the baby forms of every evil person in the world is taken in the early stages of their time line, and made to grow up in a healthy environment, so they could, as an adult, not be evil. However, I see a very large hole in this plan, and I'm going to use Hitler as an example here. As evil as Hitler was, and no matter what terrible things he did, he was an important factor in the history of the world. If we go back in time and stop Hitler from becoming evil, not only are we creating a paradox (erasing Hitler from history means that there is no Hitler to erase when we get back to our time because nobody would have heard of him), but it would also drastically change the way we live our lives.
Hitler was the main driving force behind the second world war. The war meant that British soldiers had to go out to fight. Because they all had to leave, they couldn't just abandon their jobs, so women took over. When the war was over, a lot of women carried on with their jobs, and it became almost normal for a woman to have a job. At this stage the women of Britain were battling for Women's Rights, and this really did help their case. It was because of the men leaving that women earned the right to work. No Hitler, no war. No war, no soldiers. No soldiers, no empty jobs. No empty jobs, no women running the country, and if that didn't happen, then the world as we know it would not exist. It's the Grandfather Paradox: if you change one tiny thing in the past, then you can stop yourself being born. If you were never born, then you could never have changed that detail, and if you couldn't have changed that, then you would have been born anyway, and nothing would have changed. Paradox.

Wednesday, 28 September 2011

"Resolve Is Never Stronger Than In The Morning After The Night It Was Never Weaker"

I couldn't help posting this. It's a quote by David Thewlis' character, Johnny in the film Naked, and since David wrote most of his own lines through improvisation (because that's the way Mike Leigh creates his amazing masterpieces of film), I'm thinking that this may just be an indirect David Thewlis quote.

I've pondered the meaning of this for quite a while, and I just can't think of one particular answer, just a few little ones. The first one must be put into context to understand properly, although it is by far the most simple: for example, say you go out drinking one night. Your resolve to quit drinking is extrememly low, because youre having such a good time and the affects of the alcohol have taken such a great toll on you, you're feeling happy, high, and you want to keep drinking, such is the addictive part which gives the breweries the ability to keep providing you with the alcohol. However, you wake up the next morning with a hangover, feeling like you've been crushed by a thirty tonne lorry. Now your resolve to quit drinking has never been stronger, hence, resolve is never stronger than the morning after it was never weaker.

My second interpretation is simply that we want what we can't have, or have been offered, refused, and now need. Basic human nature is to want what we can't have. If you give a child a toy when they are already playing with something else, they are likely to ignore the new toy in favour of their comforting and familiar toy, but if you try to take the new toy away, tantrums are almost certain. The child sees what they could have had and they want it desperately. We see this in relationships all the time: a girl (for example) is befriended by a lad. He's a good friend to her, and tries persistently to date her, but she thinks they're too far into the "friend zone" for anything to happen, or she thinks he isn't good enough for her, so eventually he gives up, and easily gets himself a girlfriend elsewhere. The girl sees his new relationship, and realises how stupid she was for never taking the opportunity when she could have (this happens all the time. What did you think Sk8r Boi was about?). She sees what she can no longer have and wants it desperately. Her resolve to have him is now stronger than ever. I could put this into a million examples. A person doesn't want to revise, they don't do it, they go into the exam with no idea what to do, they fail, they don't get their qualifications, they can't get a job, they wish they'd revised, but they can't go back in time. A person sees a huge spot on their face, they want to pick it despite the risk of scarring, they squeeze it, it bleeds, they regret it, it scars for a week, they regret it even more, people point it out, all right, we get it, they regret it.

Or maybe it's just that we convince ourselves that something isn't true, even though we know that it damn well is.

(I'll post more on this when I'm not choking to death)

Werewolves


The following post is based on the hypothetical assumption that werewolves exist and walk among us in our everyday lives.
Would a werewolf (let’s call him Remus because that’s the sort of Harry Potter obsessed person I am) transform on a lunar eclipse? The light from the sun isn’t reflecting off the moon's surface and we can’t see it, therefore it shouldn’t have the affects it usually does on the werewolf. Assuming that the Harry Potter portrayal is correct, which I’m not really suggesting it is, but in both the book, the film and many of the fandoms, Remus Lupin doesn’t transform until the moon comes out from behind the cover of the clouds.  This suggests that  the effects the moon has on a werewolf are only put into motion when the rays reflecting off the moon hit the werewolf’s human form. If this theory is correct, then surely on a lunar eclipse, the rays of the moon would not hit the hypothetical werewolf, and he wouldn't transform. However, if this is correct, then surely the same theory applies if I cut out a really really huge piece of circular cardboard and stuck it on the end of a really long stick to try and create a prosthetic eclipse. Or what if he just hid indoors on the night of the full moon? Or stayed in a cupboard?
On the other hand, what if it isn't the light of the moon which causes a werewolf to transform? It seems far more likely that transformations are caused by the actual alignment of the moon, much less the actual visual appearance of it, so even during a lunar eclipse or hid in your sock drawer, there is no escape from transformations. And what about during the daytime, you can sometimes see the moon, full in the sky, and yet they wouldn't transform then. Or rather, they should, and they very well might do. However, this doesn't mean that there is no escape from transformations. Although as likely as having a circle of cardboard big enough to provide any form of protection for a werewolf, or even being able to hold the stick up, this is plausible. All they'd have to do is (figuratively) run around the world, avoiding all of the moons by staying in the opposite time zone. For example, when it's the full moon in England, they should be in Australia, where it's the middle of the day, and vice versa. Of course they'd always have to be on the move, but they'd get a little break now and then.
Or, y'know, they could just transform like normal.

Mental Help: So You Look Like Ed Byrne...

When I was first told that I look like Ed Byrne, I didn't believe them. Everybody else saw it but me, until this picture was posted on Facebook. Even I am now forced to admit the truth: I am an Ed Byrne look alike. I even granted permission for people to call me "Byrnie" since we already know an Ed. Mum says that he just has very feminine looks, and Dad says it's just the hair and the glasses. Well, I didn't really think it was anything else. From the head down, we're absolutely nothing alike, as far as I can tell, and if anyone can prove me otherwise, I'd prefer it if you didn't.

Does Weather Affect Emotion?


For the last few days, the weather has taken an unusually good turn, and as a result, despite the fact that the majority of people I know have a cold in some form or another, nearly everybody seems to be in a relatively good mood. Obviously this doesn’t really apply to everyone, but most people seem happier and more easily pleased. This wasn’t an easy thing to pick up on, given the usual general hyperactivity of my friends, but had it been pouring down with rain today, I’m sure the majority of people would have been in a considerably more miserable state of mind.
Obviously I’m going to need more evidence to support this, but my theory is that if the weather is such that suggests a cheerful outlook, most of the time, we will follow the suggestion. The same works with rain; if the weather is drizzly and dark, it’s far more difficult to maintain a positive outlook on life. Of course this wouldn’t apply to people who prefer the rain to the sun, but hypothetically, if for one day the entire world experienced the weather that makes them happiest, excluding the psychopaths, the emotionless and the brain-dead, we could have a day where everybody was perfectly content.

Friday, 23 September 2011

Nerdy and Proud

Not a lot of people know me really well, but if you know me at all, you'll know that I'm a lot of things, but really, first and foremost, I am a nerd. Use whatever technical term you like; nerd, geek, weirdo, they all effectively, in the sense that I'm speaking of, which for the purposes of this blog is correct, they all mean, generally the sane thing. Perhaps weirdo is an exception to this rule but people do tend to make the links between weird and geeky, but that's for reasons I'm really not sure I get. The term nerd is used as an insult far too often, and that is part of the thing that frustrates me. People need to learn what an insult is. An insult should be calling someone something that they do not wish to be or it is not good to be. When you call someone a nerd as an insult and they are actually a nerd with no exceptions, it just isn't an insult, because it is not a bad thing to be a nerd. Calling someone a nerd is like saying "Hey! You are way to enthusiastic about the mirical of human consciousness," (paraphrasing John Green). Furthermore, the world needs geeks! Without the speccy bookworms that we all (well, most of us) know and love, the world would not exist as it does today. Where would we be without Einstein? Stephen Hawking? Stephen Fry (I know he's not a scientist but he is most deffinitely a nerd)? Without literary geniuses like Shakespeare there would be no books. Without computer geeks there would be no Internet. Without camera geeks there would be no films or TV. The world is run by smart people but for some reason, a distinct percentage of the population of our world discriminates the geniuses because they're different. Of course, we, as the nerdy community, handle the jabs at our pride with relative ease, because we can't change the fact that discrimination happens to everybody, no matter who they are or what that do. If we change the way that we percieve people, the whole world will change. Can you imagine a world where everybody is a genius? The world would not be able to cope. Sure, with the millions of billions of full-blown Einstein's out there, someone would probably figure out a cure for disease and world hunger and poverty and global warming within a few days of universal cleverness, and the lives of billions of people would be drastically improved, but then what happens? We'd always be human, and just like we have wars now, there'd still be war in the world of mass academic superiority. Only this time, the wars would be everywhere. Chaos would break out on the streets. It is human nature to believe that we are right, and it is natural instinct to want to make others see your point of view, therefore massive arguments woult break out about the stupidest of details. We wouldn't be able to cope, and eventually, hopefully, evolution would kick in and make us thick again. Back to my original point, yes, it's okay to be nerdy, and no, people shouldn't discriminate everybody for being who they are. But please, please oh please, stay who you are.

Tuesday, 20 September 2011

Bloody Hell.

I've hurt my wrist again. I was on the piano and I got really frustrated, so I played this chord sequence over and over and over and over until it hurt to move my fingers. Now typing hurts and I'm probably going to have to rest it for a few days. Bloody hell. -_-

Getting Over People Isn't Easy.

Getting over people isn't easy, but it's possible, and getting obsessed with somebody is far too easy.

Monday, 19 September 2011

HELLZ YEAH, A* !!!

I got my first A* today in English, so yeah, happy dance! 18/20 on a narrative controlled assesmemt. It wasn't finished and I made a couple of errors, and it could have gone into a lot more depth, but I could not be (much) happier with my result. I mean, sure if I got 19 or ever 20/20, then yes, I would literally be bouncing off the walls, but I'm chuffed to bits with my 18/20 A* :D

Saturday, 17 September 2011

My Anti-List

You've seen my list. Now here's my anti-list, of people that there is no way I would ever put on my list.

Justin Bieber: NO. No, no, no, no, no. He will never be on my list. Yes, I see why girls are attracted to him, and I have nothing against him, and the jokes people make about him are really harsh and uncalled for, but no. His music isn't that good, although I've never actually listened to one of his songs in full, and if I ever met him in person, I'd probably not be all too hyped up, although of course I'd tell him he's a decent musician. I can't really tell if that's a lie or not.

Taylor Lautner: As with Justin Bieber, I have nothing against the guy, I'm just not interested. Yes, I can see that he's good looking, but still, no. I was always a Team Edward girl, although now I'm neither, really.


Jacob Black: See, this is where my problem is. Jacob Black is NOT a werewolf. Werewolves are the creatures that transform due to the alignment of the moon, and they don't have a choice.Werewolves lose all control of their minds (unless they are a Harry Potter style werewolf, which are far more realistic, who can take wolfsbane potion to maintain their human mind when they transform) and it'd incredibly painful, whereas Twilight wolves don't even seem to acknowledge the fact that their body has just been completely ripped apart and re-set in a very different shape. Yeah, 'cos that wouldn't be painful at all.

My List

This is what we do in lessons. Well, lessons that don't require a great deal of thinking, e.g, the vast majority of maths lessons this year so far, DT, and a fair amount of English lessons.

My list. Usually a list is made by a person in a relationship, to name usually either five or ten celebrities who they are allowed to do what they please with, and the other person in that relationship can't get mad. Of course, I am not in a relationship, nor is it likely that I will ever meet any of these people, much less if I did meet them, they would agree to what I want to do with them (a kiss on the cheek, lots of hugs and photographs, and an autograph. What were YOU thinking? Dirty minded person). Anyway, because of these two major factors, I'm assuming that I'm allowed an unlimited list. :D These people aren't in any particular order, some of them are fictional, and I will add to it as I think of them.

David Thewlis: He's on my list because he's an amazing actor, and I'm really kind of obsessed with him, and things that he's been in, written, said, photos he's posed for... Yeah I'm not even ashamed to say I'm obsessed, because, well, he's well and truly awesome. I have a teeny tiny little crush on him because he's so amazing, even though he's only a year younger than my mum, a few years older than my dad and looks a bit like him. He's really awesome to draw, too.

Remus Lupin: Well, I could hardly have David Thewlis on my list and not have Remus Lupin, too, could I? Okay, so he's fictional. Ignore that. Okay, he's a werewolf. Ignore that, too. Okay, so he's married. Okay, so he's four years older than my mum. Okay, so he's got a son who was born two years after me. Okay, so he's dead. Yeah. Ignore all of those facts, and why not? Werewolves are amazing **cough** sexy **cough** Ahem. Yeah. Wow, I need to make a post about werewolves. I can't believe I haven't already.

Sirius Black:  See above for a lot of points. Dead, yes. Fictional, oui. Bothered? Nah. Gorgeous? HELLZ YEAH!

Gary Oldman:  I really need to post a photo here to prove my point. In recent months, years, even, I haven't been keeping tabs so I don't know... But he doesn't look so good after or during the last filming for Batman, I think it's the long grey hair... It doesn't look right on him, however, with short hair and a slight beardy-moustache-thing going on, I'm very much impressed.


Peter Facinelli: For those uninformed people, he is most commonly known for playing Carlisle Cullen in the Twilight Saga. He's also written some things that I can't be bothered to list, although I will say that he was very good in Nurse Jackie. Gorgeous. No other words. Except maybe 'intensely' and 'unbearably'.

Carlisle Cullen: Vampire, sexy, doctor, gorgeous, kind, heart-melty. Need I say more?

Michael Bublé: Even without his incredibly talented voice, Michael Bublé has a ridiculously high sex appeal. When I first heard of him it was through his covers of Christmas songs that mum would play when we put the tree up, and I always pictured him as an old man, but when one of his songs got stuck in my head, I Googled him, and I've been addicted ever since. I love my calendar this year. I want him every year.

Robert Pattinson: When I became temporarily addicted to Twilight (two years is still temporary), I was instantly a team Edward fangirl, and I very much loved my 2010 calendar.  But then I discovered Carlisle Cullen and Peter Facinelli, and poor old RPattz got kicked to the bottom of my top five list. Then I became re-addicted to Harry Potter, and even Carlisle got kicked to the sidelines. Tough luck. Oh, and notice how Edward Cullen isn't on my list?


Alan Rickman: I'm not entirely sure why he's on my list. I'm not sure whether I have a thing for Alan Rickman or a thing for Snape. Either way, I am, in a (very) strange way, attracted, and I finally see what mum was talking about all those years.


Ed Sheeran: Ginger musician with a jaw-dropping talent. Yeah, I can't not be tempted.


Rupert Grint: See above, minus the bit about the musician.


James and Oliver Phelps: These guys seem so nice! They're the Weasley twins, and I can't tell them apart. I'd have them over Jedward any day.

Hank Green: Nerdfighting geeky person and VlogBrother. He makes really funny and simultaneously interesting videos, and is a really cool musician. He's just generally made of awesome.


John Green: Basically the same as his brother, Hank, except he's an author and a father, too, and he called his dog Fireball Wilson Robertts, which he shortened to Willie.


Ed Blann (Eddplant): I only recently discovered Edplant's music, I'd heard of him before but I'd never really paid any attention to him, but then he covered Teenage Dirtbag by Wheatus and I just fell in love with his Emo-type looks and really really cool voice.

Charlie McDonnell (Charlieissocoollike): I can't remember a time in my internet life when I wasn't subscribed to Charlie. His video's are funny, informative and usually musical. He's also really geeky and really sweet, I just want to hug him. ^_^

David Tennant: Ah, Mr Tennant, my first huge celebrity crush. Before the times of Twilight posters or even before Year 7, I have always loved the Tenth Doctor. I had almost life-size posters on the back of my bedroom door for years, and I've seen every episode of Doctor Who he's ever been in. He's got incredible talent as an actor, and I owea large percentage of my childhood to him.

Keep loking for my Anti-List.

Tuesday, 13 September 2011

Harry Potter VS Twilight

This is an ongoing battle between fans, whether it's on YouTube comments and video's, Facebook, Twitter, Tumblr and now this blog. It's a ridiculous thing to be fighting about, I mean, if J.K. Rowling and Stephanie Meyers met in the street (unlikely, but for hypothetical purposes, it's happening), I'm sure they wouldn't start bitch-fighting right there about whose saga is better, and it's only the stubborness and pride of fans that keep the battle going, so really, if both sides could just be open minded, it would all be over, and we can just call eachother equals and worthy of our own opinions. Of course, it's only human nature that we want to voice our opinions and prove the rest of the world wrong, so, guess what I'm going to do? ;) First off, I'd like to state that I grew up with Harry Potter. Mum started reading it to me when I was about five or six, but by the time we were about half way through The Goblet Of Fire (book 4) I was easily scared, and mum was getting tired of reading out loud, so we didn't read any more together. I tried reading it on my own but it just wasn't the same, and I hardly ever picked the books up again until I was about 12 or 13. I started the whole series again, borrowed the final two from the school library and then when I saw the copies of the last two for sale with the same publishers covers as the rest of the ones I owned (the paperbacks with the three different colours on the spines) I bought them, or rather I insisted that they would be my birthday presents. Then I read every book again, several times, until I became well and truly obsessed with both the books and the films. I'd been addicted to Harry Potter for no longer than a month or two, when out of the sheer annoyance of my friend, I read Twilight. It took me two days, and I have to say, I lost almost all interest in Harry Potter, and devoted all of my time to reading and re-reading the Twilight books. The time of my first reading collided with my first holiday to the Lake District, a beautiful place, but I spent the majority of the time there either reading or walking around, admiring the scenery and wishing that I could be reading. In the week I was on holiday, I'd finished Twilight, read New Moon, Eclipse and Breaking Dawn, and had started Twilight again. I was instantly a Team Edward fan, although at that time I didn't know that the term existed. The day that we arrived back home, we went to ASDA, where I bought the Twilight DVD. I watched it the second I was through the door, and then the next day I went back to ASDA and bought the soundtrack CD, which I sat and listened to in full before I could do anything else. For the next few months I did barely anything that wasn't Twilight or school related. Months down the line, much to the irritation of my friends, I was introduced to Fanfiction. This sparked another dangerous obsession. Bella/Edward fics were read by the dozen, and I (badly) attempted to write a few. This went on for a year, and around the time of the anniversay of the first time I read Twilight, I lost interest in Edward, and began my obsession with Carlisle Cullen, the shiny, harmless doctor. Cue the Carlisle/Esme fics. I read hundreds of them. I wrote about two hundred chapters about them, although only around half of them were posted online. This is when my addiction to Fanfiction.net really kicked up a gear. For those who think I'm exaggerating witn my use of the word 'addiction', I'm not. I checked for reviews at every possible chance. I set up email on my iPod so the reviews and the favourites and the author alert notifications would be streamed straight to my iPod whenever I had Internet access. I cried when I didn't get any reviews, and I got such a kick out of getting good ones. Every spare moment was spent either writing or thinking about writing, and I'm not even exaggerating. Eventually, writers block struck, and finally I got to the stage where I was unable to update. For weeks I was frustrated and miserable. It was a GCSE Drama exam which gave me hope once more. As part of our exam, our given stimulus was the film, The Boy In The Striped Pyjamas. We watched it as a class, and one major factor stuck out for me while watching it; a particular character who whenever he appeared on screen, made me think "I haven't seen Harry Potter in ages...". The actor's name is David Thewlis, and if you know me at all, you'll know that I harbour great respect for him as an actor, as Remus Lupin had always been a favourite character of mine, for reasons I never quite understood. I wasn't sure that it was Lupin, but it damned sure looked like him. After the film had finished, I stayed after class and requested to watch the end credits, to see if I was right, which of course I was. That night, I watched Prizoner of Azkaban, a film which throughout every amazing film I've ever seen, remains in the top five. From that day onwards, I've had a rather large obsession with David Thewlis, Remus Lupin, and werewolves. I watched as many films and TV shows starring David as I could on YouTube, and begged for months to order his book online, which I didn't put down for a day or two when it arrived, and is currently my favourite book ever. I'm still mildly obsessed with Remus and Tonks' life together. The number of fanfictions I've read about those two in three months rivals the amount I read about Twilight in general in two years, and I'm currently undergoing the planning for a HUGE fanfiction, which will follow Remus' life from childhood to the day he met Tonks, then double back and do the same for her life, and then the part where their timelines merged and from that point onwards, until their last moments. I've given myself a year at least to plan it, because, A) I want this fic to be perfect in every single way, and B) school comes first, so I want to get all of my exams out of the way before I start writing seriously. Plus in the space of now until next year, I should have a lot of chapters pre-written before I start uploading them. Anyway, my point is that both Saga's have had a lot of influence on my life. (Will be continued later.)

Saturday, 10 September 2011

Still Experimenting...

Again, I'm experimenting and figuring out how to work this, so at some point I'll be able to upload all of the videos and pictures from my school Paris trip, which I still need to get printed.

Experimenting...

Okay, so this is me figuring out how to upload pictures to my blog. Pointless, considering nobody reads it, but I like doing this, so I'm going to carry on. 

I AM A NERDFIGHTER!

Nerdfighters are awesome. 'Nuf said.

... Nahh I'm joking, you can never say too much about nerdfighteria. Right now I'm a little angry at my computer for not understanding the word Nerdfighter. GRRR...